The overall goal for this semester is NOT to do what I did last semester.  In other words, I need to go to every class, ask for help when I need it, turn things in on time, have a positive attitude, and rely more on my friendships.  My attitude is still crap, but I'm working on it.

It wasn't supposed to happen this way.  My grandparents were supposed to live to their 100s.  I was supposed to be more independent, confident, and sure of who I am and who I want to be.  But in the last 2-3 years, I've become bitter.  I don't like the results, and I'm not dealing with it as well as I should.

Still brainstorming on what my New Years Resolution(s) should be.  The main ones I've decided on are (they're kind of cheesy) are punctuality, less perfectionism, and perseverance: don't be late, making mistakes, and keep moving forward.  I should really exercise more and eat healthier, and I really need to learn how to be less shy and more optimistic.  Optimism used to be one of my best qualities, but it's disappeared in the abrupt shadow of bad news.

This year is going to be about me.  I am usually more selfless than selfish, but ignoring these incessant problems prevents me from doing anything productive.  I need to work on me before I help others.

I was reading an article about HSP and I realized that I'm probably one.

I've been moved to cry 3 times in public out of embarrassment.  I remember crying in front of my music teacher because the music was just too hard to play.  I was only 7 at the time! :P  She comforted me, told me it's okay, it's hard material...then the next week, with a scoff, she asked me, "You're not gonna cry again, are you?"

I'm glad that there's a possibility that there are more people out there who considered themselves  HSPs.  It's not always fun to be the only one.